tammyjoymccrea

A couple of posts back I mentioned the idea of a life experiment. I like the thought of changing something and observing the results. I am always on a quest for self-improvement. It gets tiring, but I can't help it!

As a result I have been re-arranging some things in my life. Right now, it is my house. Yes, I've been physically rearranging, but I am also working to release some of the stuck energy here. Lest that seem too "woo-woo" for you, let me explain.

I've been renting this place for roughly three years. Three years... and I haven't settled in. I ask myself, how did I end up in such a non-place in such a non-town?  Not urban or rural; not big or small; not here or there. And though it is difficult to admit it, it is all my responsibility. It is purely because I didn't have a vision for what I wanted. So my goal now is to develop a vision.

On the way to defining what I want, it is important that I come to terms with where I am. With my house, that translates to making a it place where I am comfortable.  That means un-sticking the front door, painting the walls, fixing the faucets, and settling in. It means setting up my home so I can comfortably do the things I want to do. It is about not whiling away my time here until something better comes along.  Nope, I've done that before, and I can see where it's gotten me.

I have already made a lot of progress. I've painted over most of the garish green walls with much warmer colors. And although I would love to implement a sort-of organic-industrial theme, it just isn't happening in this house. That's okay.

As cliche as it may seem, I purchased the book:

which is amazingly enlightening and empowering. I need the validation that I am not being superficial by thinking about the decor/arrangement/style of my home. On top of that, this is a hands-on book that helps guide you to discover what you really want for your space, and how to get that. I am on week one, behind schedule with the folks on the Apartment Therapy website. Stay tuned for photos.